Thursday, March 26
01:42
finally smth different today, and i feel gd!
it was k session again yday night, oh man i miss those guys hahaha.
and i met STEPHY!
talked alot! like how red2 is so black but i still have no idea bout the bossini. not tt i am v interested to know lah. haha.
smth different. haha.
i'm glad they're all there to keep me sane. amidst my hectic life and what nots.
and of cos, those in the team as well!
you know who you people are.
and i hope, YOU are feeling alright!
i'm really glad for those friends who can stand how i whine non stop bout the same old things everytime.
hor stephy hor.
i know i grumble alot but i am def not grumpy.
thanks friends, for listening and everything.
(:
and you.
hello you! recover fast!
do i sound happy?
dun doubt, i'm really feeling better today.
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anndlearnhowtofly
i am really pissed off.
i dun care if i'm a person who has a bad personality, a person who shows attitude, a person who is v narrow minded.
i am just like tt and even though i dun like it, i cant help it.
its smth duper minor, but being me, i cant stand it.
and i hate myself, for not being able to complete what i know i definitely can.
i keep telling myself tt i can, but somehow my body doesnt listen.
am so disappointed, am so dejected.
its always the same everytime. i hope i can trust myself more.
sorry, i'm really in a v bad mood now, and i am really someone whom i myself dun even like.
i hope mummy's having fun in vietnam and china!
felt so bad i didnt go w my bro and her to the airport this morning, couldnt wake up.
grr.
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anndlearnhowtofly
i dunno why am i like tt, issit just cos i'm tired or i'm alr really sick of everything?
i just wanna stay away.
i really cant be bothered anymore lah.
its time i set my priorities right, like really.
exams are in 1 mth, i shudnt think so much.
i'm actually dreading life after exams.
ridiculous.
push everything to the v back of my mind, and decide when the new sem starts.
urgh i am feeling irritated and helpless, very very very irritated and helpless.
IHATEIHATEIHATE.
the tears told me, they cant help falling.
i need to talk. i really need to.
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anndlearnhowtofly
i wanna confess and blurt everything out.
BUT I CANT.
urgh so frustrating.
you-know-who-you-are, yes, you, HOW! D:
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anndlearnhowtofly
i think i should stop being -
irritating.
persistent.
pessimistic.
lazy.
sad.
grumpy (though i dun really think i am).
affected by people not impt at all.
mayb i should really be happier.
mayb.
and i cant think of any reasons why shudnt i, w all these great FRIENDS ard me.
cheerup, myself.
i should smile more.
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anndlearnhowtofly
i hate to feel not well like that.
so lethargic and tired, i dun like.
idk what caused me to be so weak alr.
and i think, i really stress myself too much, and i really cant help it.
i slept for so long alr, i still feel like slping now.
no work done, again.
skipped trng, again.
what now.
AHHH.
this sucks.
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anndlearnhowtofly
its the weekend, again.
i dun even like weekends now alr ):
in fact, i hate it.
sigh.
didnt play ball today.
one most prob is enjoying at luxy, the other two shud be in the casino.
D:
i love hthts.
its when i can say anything i am not happy w.
and i needa go back to hall soon.
ah this sucks.
its time to be stronger, mentally.
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anndlearnhowtofly
i am not enjoying it at all.
jumped out of bed at 9, shocked at how late i woke up when trng's supposed to start at 9. didnt go, cos the earliest i'll be able to reach bedok is 11. wch is quite pointless actually.
out w the friends when i was supposed to be studying.
same old fun, slacked and rotted til dinner time at vivo, waiting for the king to arrive.
walked ard for awhile before gg to concord to play lan.
I SUCK AT IT MAN.
i think steph and andrew were spending their time and lives to save me instead of killing the zombies haha.
and these friends i went out w made me think again.
what do i really want? ):
consulted,and RETHINK again.
sigh.
imu though! i know you dunno.
sometimes people lie to make themselves happy or for whatever reason idk.
but actually, they look and sound damn stupid unknowingly.
and my hair stands when they make this kinda stupid comments.
i stop myself from saying the truth so that it wun be awkward.
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anndlearnhowtofly
back frm supper at hollandv, colin quek i updated my blog.
suddenly its a get tgt session w the bball ppl this period of time. not that i'm complaining, cos i'm loving every second of it. its heart warming, and idk why but they just make my day.
not that i had a very very bad day, but they just made my day better.
i guess.
and BT i am feeling alright, as alright as how you feel bout your teeth hahaha.
seriously lah. thanks man, and stop touching your ankle.
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anndlearnhowtofly
back, after quite some time.
recess week's gone just like that.
and i've been complaining bout how bz i will be, i think i was sick like more than half of the week.
so weak.
i hate feeling weak, it kinda suck.
i so wanna push myself.
but what went wrong? so disappointing.
its still raining, so cold.
and i wish all the friends who'll be getting their results today gd luck.
WENJIE I KNOW YOU WILL DO FINE.
went out w the old bunch of friends the other day, felt great.
i wanna k again, although i know i cant sing!
when you feel that your life alr hit rock bottom, worse will happen.
why are humans such selfish creatures.
when i hope you were there..
i need a goal in life.
p/s. SHUTING IS SO NOT GRUMPY PLS. she's like how cheerful lor.
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anndlearnhowtofly